Saturday, June 14, 2008

Tenth Anniversary

Thursday, June 12th, was my tenth wedding anniversary with my beloved Decker. There are two anniversaries I can pretty much count on being a basket case on, one is my wedding anniversary, the other is the anniversary of Decker's death (August 14th). The really sad part is, I've been too busy taking care of Mom to be a basket case this week over our anniversary. I know Decker is busy on the other side, doing the things God called him to his heavenly home for, so hopefully he isn't upset with my lacking in feelings for it.

It's been a crazy ten years, though. We were only married for two years when he died unexpectedly. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I believe that marriages are eternal. I know that mine is, so long as I live worthy of it. In the Temples of my church we are married for time and eternity. Mine has moved from the time portion, but a lot of the time I feel I'm still waiting for the eternity portion to kick in, simply because I don't have him physically with me yet. I know he watches over me, and there are some days I know that can be a full time job.

I don't know that I'll ever find love again during my lifetime, but I can promise you that Decker was definitely worth waiting for.

1 comment:

Shellee said...

Happy Anniversary!!!! The best part about being a member of the church in this capacity is not believing that you are sealed to him, but KNOWING that you are. Believing is a mind state, Knowing is a all encompassing state. When you know, Faith and Belief is not subjective based upon how you feel at the time, it is a knowledge within the very core of you. Decker is proud of you.