Update 26 April 2020

Anxiety.  Depression.

I had the wonderful blessing of having two men from my Ward come to my home to administer both the Sacrament and a Priesthood Blessing.

It was beautiful and definitely needed.

This past week I finally started re-writing the book I had begun while Mom was still alive.  What she didn’t know then, but probably knows now in Heaven, is that a character in the book was going to be modeled after her.  Friday night I finished a 544 word character profile for the protagonist.  It was more about the journey of this character (modeled after me) and felt a deep sense of accomplishment.  What I realized after reading it was the raw emotions of this character’s journey and less about plot of the story.  So I guess I’ll need to re-write again, only this time try to stick with the plot.  But I’m certainly not deleting what I wrote because it reflects who I truly am, despite what people think of me.

I’ve learned that I do care about others, but I’ve also learned that I also need to take care of me, otherwise everything else goes to pot.

I’m starting to make myself a priority and while other people may not like that change, it’s what I need.

I’m also starting to change from being everyone’s whipping post to being a warrior.

This will mean unfriending people, unsubscribing from people, unfollowing people and giving people loving, but firm, responses when they cross my boundaries.

For anyone who may think this is not Christian hasn’t met Jesus yet in their struggles.

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Update 12 April 2020

Happy and blessed Easter Sunday!

After several sleepless nights this past week, I finally broke down and took Ambien for both Thursday night and Friday night.  Needless to say, I couldn’t sleep last night.  Ha, ha.

Friday we had the day off and I pretty much spent it sleeping.

Saturday I listed to an audiobook while getting some things cleaned up around the house.  I made two trips to recycling and I’m still not done.

I have a pile started of donations but since no one is taking donations right now, I’m going to put the stuff in storage until things start opening up.  I wonder if I’ll be one of a line of people donating stuff after being quarantined for so long and decluttering.  I’m sure I’m not alone in looking around my home and feeling like there is way too much stuff.

I’ve been slowly working on the dining room table since January as part of my new life - new me - new home initiative I am working with my therapist on.  I didn’t take a before picture, but given that I have brethren from my Church coming this morning to bring the Sacrament, I did the last finishing touches.  Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ definitely work miracles.  Ha, ha.

I also managed to finish up with the dishes piling up in my sink and shined my sink.  It’s not by any means perfect, but at this point it’s enough.

A few photos from this morning:

What Are You Looking Forward To When This Crisis Is Over?

Update 29 March 2020

I’m writing to you from the sunshine and fresh air of my balcony.

Of course that means the cats are all out here with me.  LOL.

I moved the little shelves that used to hold my emergency supplies to the balcony as I need something to help me organize my garden supplies.

I broke my fast early today as I needed to get my medication in me and I don’t trust myself yet to take it without food.

I decided to hold my own little Church prayer service to break my fast.

The opening hymn was #26 Joseph Smith’s First Prayer

Prayer to begin the service and break my fast

Watched while eating:  Spiritual Treasures by President Nelson - October 2019 General Conference - Women’s Meeting

Closing hymn was We Thank Thee Oh God For A Prophet

Closing prayer of gratitude

How thankful I am to be back in the Church, serving a calling, attending Church meetings and partaking of the Sacrament, and best of all, I was able to get a new Temple Recommend just before all of this happened.

How thankful I am that we have President Nelson, a former physician, as our current Prophet, Seer & Revelator.

How thankful I am, most especially, for a Savior who still loves me, no matter how ornery I get sometimes.

Physically I am fine, I have sinus and asthma issues but no temperature.  I am finally sleeping through the night (nightmares are only occasional now) without medication, so that’s also a blessing.

Take care, be safe, be well.

Update Saturday 28 March 2020

Today was a great day!

It did mean I had to go out and be in public, albeit with social distancing, of course.

I filled the gas tank with gas and picked up some food at Walmart and pretty much found everything I needed.  The pasta was already sold out (again) and the young people who were stocking the shelves were looking at each other with shock on their faces as people were grabbing the pasta as soon as they put it on the shelves.  Crazy.  I wan’t looking for pasta, I was looking for pasta sauce which I was able to find.

I also purchased and curb-side picked up a new vacuum... this time it’s one built for pets and very highly rated.

I’ll keep you posted on how well this works.

Take care, stay well.

The Modern Day Passover?

I don’t know that I would go to that extreme, but it does make you wonder about the spread of this virus.

A friend of mine posted this on Facebook today and I thought I’d share it here.

Today’s date:  3/26/20

If you go to Isaiah 26:20 you will read:

20 Come, my people, enter thou into thy chambers, and shut thy doors about thee: hide thyself as it were for a little moment, until the indignation be overpast.

Picture Source:  

https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/media-library/images/passover-supper-1238799?lang=eng